I wish I could say I’m a quick learner. I wish I could say that I am super spiritual, or something, and that God only has to teach me things once. I wish I could say I’m not stubborn or willful.
The theme of my life seems to be learning to Trust God in every circumstance, feeling, and thought. At 25 years old this lesson has been (gracefully and lovingly) pounded into my head over and over by my Heavenly Father.
When I was 18 the Lord gave me a verse that I’ve come to call my life verse because I have to keep going back to it: “Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you.” Psalm 37:5
Today the Lord brought another trust verse.
“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord. He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.” Jeremiah 17:7-8
That’s what I want. To be connected to this water. Connected to Jesus’ wisdom and perfect peace. That can’t happen if I don’t trust him.
Pregnancy and parenthood has stretched my faith and trust in new ways.
Trusting God with those I love most seems to be the hardest thing for me. I tell myself: “if I hold on to this fear of their health, safety, future that somehow I can influence how it all turns out.”
Lies lies lies.
My worry and fear changes nothing.
Letting go of my fear and trusting the God of the Universe changes everything.
God loves these people more than I do. He created them and knows everything about them. Nothing can happen to them without his prior knowledge. His plans for them and for his Kingdom are good.
He is all powerful, he is Love, King, Father, Healer, Creator.
My worry does nothing. Trusting Him is everything.