Living in the moment has always been a problem for me. I’m a planner. I love to think about the next fun thing and plan it, I obsess over know what my day tomorrow will look like, I like to know what’s going on when and how we are going to get there, do it and all that jazz. This is a good thing, to an extent.
I often miss out in the now, and then miss it later. For instance, right now I am in my last semester of college, I don’t know what I’m going to do with my major and I am SO ready to be done with school. I’m ready to know where we will be for next school year (when Jeff starts grad school), where we’ll work, where we’ll live. I’m just ready for the next step!
I have to remind my self to slow down and enjoy where I am at. I am taking some fantastic classes and if I’m not “all there” I’ll miss out on the fun and the important learning experiences. If I’m too focused on the future I’ll miss out on college, the friends, activities, campus life and I know that I will miss this time of life badly.
You would think after years and years of dealing with this problem I’d have it worked out, but no. It is hard to just trust the future to God and be in the moment.
It’s Monday night and I’m procrastinating on writing a paper (a short paper) for my Russian Literature class, but here is my goal for this week- Wherever I am, to be all there. Whether its in class, doing homework, at work, spending time with Jeff or just relaxing, I’m going to be in the moment and trust the future to God.
You’re prayers would be appreciated! And with that said, I’m going to go write my paper.